Insight into the mind of an 11 AP student connecting literature and music into individuality and life.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Tiger Mother
In 2011, Amy Chua published a book titled Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother. The book depicts the strict upbringing and endless regime the mother places on her children in order for them to succeed. From this book came the term "Tiger Mom", which students of Chinese descent often refer to their own mothers as. This piece played a stark contrast to the piece "Arm Wrestling with My Father" by Brad Manning, in which the father is the physical image that motivates his son to do well. This contrast is underscored by cultural differences. In Chinese culture, it is universal that the mother motivates the child to succeed in school to the extent that the child often contemplates running away or suicide (I wish that this was a joke. In 2011 out of 20 million students in China, 40 have committed suicide. Source: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/18/chinese-students-suicide-waiver_n_3948310.html). I too have felt the incessant roaring from my tiger mother to succeed in school. I find it extremely interesting how different cultures rely on different parents to raise and get the most out of their children. One possible origin of this cultural differences could be the fact that in Ancient China, women did play prominent roles within the family fabric, unlike the marginalization of woman's rights within American history. Whatever the reason for this cultural lag is, I personally appreciate my mother's compassion for my own success, even if it may get annoying at times and release an unhealthy amount of adrenocortiotropic hormone from my adrenal glands at times. But in the end, I do well in school, she's happy for my success, and I'm happy for my own success.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Some Nights

Dale Gallon's Desperate Valor, 1988
The sun is setting
The sun is setting
A palette of crimson, orange, and purple
Gloomy and ominous
Shots fired
Shots fired
The smell of gunpowder permeates through the air
The battlefield already marred with bodies of the fallen
The battlefield already marred with bodies of the fallen
A cloud of smoke
There are footsteps
The footsteps of a stampede
A gradual crescendo
The time is near, the time has come
For one, failure
One step closer to nothing
Turmoil
For one, failure
One step closer to nothing
Turmoil
For the other, glory and redemption,
One step closer to the cause
A lifestyle
The troop emerges from the cloud of smoke
Like a stampede of horses
The bright red Confederate flag
Dances with the wind
The commander spearheads his troop, saber in hand
His face speaks of valor
What does he stand for?
His face speaks of valor
What does he stand for?
He has lived a life of pain
He has lost everything
His family
His home
His glory
He has lost everything
His family
His home
His glory
A life of struggle
All surmounting to this final charge
The chance to bring glory and redemption
To the cause he fights for
To his nation
To his nation
His troop is ready
What do they stand for?
What do they stand for?
Each soldier has his own story
Each a story of pain
A story of suffering
Fighting for their life
Fighting for the lifestyle of their people
One solider lost his father to a slave revolt
Another saw his village burn in a raid
Another saw his village burn in a raid
Another saw his closest companion shot by a Union soldier
Each a different story
A different pain
A sharp sword penetrating the heart of the soldiers
Behind the troop lies their dead companions
Those who died fighting for their same cause
The Union Soldier hides behind the log
He knows his end is near
Terrified
Looking around
He sees the dead bodies of his companions
What is he fighting for?
What does he stand for?
At this point
He is not even sure
His enemies are fighting for their way of life
But what is he on the battlefield for?
To deny his enemies of this lifestyle?
The lives of men he will never know or understand?
Turmoil
Turmoil
His inner uncertainty stings his heart
Maybe this is all a dream
Surreal
Maybe this is all a dream
Surreal
What does he stand for?
But the end is near for this lone soldier
He thinks of his family
His mother
His father
His sister
Everything he has sacrificed for them
His mother's tears watching her little baby leave the homestead
His father's tears for his son's bravery and devotion to his nation
His sister's tears as she saw him fade away into the horizon
His mother's tears watching her little baby leave the homestead
His father's tears for his son's bravery and devotion to his nation
His sister's tears as she saw him fade away into the horizon
Their beautiful faces speak of innocence
Their tears speak of pain and suffering
Grief
Anguish
Suddenly
He knows what his cause is
What he stands for
Their tears speak of pain and suffering
Grief
Anguish
Suddenly
He knows what his cause is
What he stands for
Suddenly
A sharp pain permeates the soldiers side
He has been shot
The physical pain
Ephemeral
The emotional pain
Eternal
Ephemeral
The emotional pain
Eternal
He hears the sound of the drum for retreat
He struggles to keep his eyes open
The image of his mother's tears flashes into his eyes one last time
He has failed her
The emotional pain
Unbearable
A tear trickles down his coarse chin
Her baby will not come home
He has failed her
The emotional pain
Unbearable
A tear trickles down his coarse chin
Her baby will not come home
The sun has set
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Amy Tan is My Mother?
To be honest, when I read the story "Fish Cheeks" by Amy Tan, I was unable to connect with the story. Even with a Chinese upbringing, for some reason I did not connect to everything that Tan was portraying. Foods like "slimy rock cod" or "dried fungus"? Never heard of it. And what are fish cheeks? Never in my sixteen plus years of life have I seen any of my family, friends, or relatives even mention fish cheeks. What is everything that Amy Tan is describing? Have I been growing up living a lie and thinking that I live in a Chinese culture? The answer is no. It turns out that I am not Amy Tan, my mom is. My mom has subconsciously assimilated into American culture. I can see it in her cooking. The "slimy rock cod" that Amy describes is now fish filet or a delicious salmon. The dried fungus is now mushrooms cooked with potatoes. Everything that my mom cooks has lost its Chinese, exotic nature; she has assimilated into American culture when it comes to cooking. No, I don't eat rice every night; in fact, it is more common that my mom makes Italian pasta, American hamburgers, and even Mexican tacos. My mother is trying to shield me from the exotic nature of Chinese food in fear that I won't accept it and instead giving me what my American companions are probably eating. My mom, like Amy, has fallen victim to the pressures of fitting into white society, and my non-Chinese meals reflect this fact. But I don't mind. Her cooking is delicious, and I sure as heck would rather eat a mouth-watering salmon than a "slimy rock cod".
Saturday, February 1, 2014
AP U.S. History: How Not to Write an Essay 101
Last year, I took the class known as AP U.S. History. I learned many things in this class, most importantly historical facts, analysis of how history was affected by certain people and events, how things came to be for us today, and how to write a terrible essay. In APUSH, we learned to write an essay that followed a strict format: a three part thesis statement, 3 body paragraphs, and a conclusion. In addition, the overall content of the essay was not graded on well organized, deeply analyzed thought, but rather simple content and whether or not the essay responded to the prompt. While I learned to master this type of essay writing and earned a 5 on my APUSH exam, this led to an extremely difficult transition from APUSH to 11 AP English. The first two essays that I wrote for 11 AP were utter disasters; marks of "so what?" and "what's your point" and the brutal "how does this even answer the prompt do you even English wow this essay was so awful I would rather swim across the Pacific Ocean with paper cuts all over my body than read this essay again" (this is a slight over exaggeration) proliferated on my paper. The reason for these marks were all rooted on one main problem: I was accustomed to writing the standard APUSH essay that it had completely murdered my ability to write a good English essay. The APUSH Essay structure put me in the mindset of writing as much as I could in a given amount of time as long as I had the content; this method is not applicable to the English essay structure as English essays require more thought out ideas and analysis. So while APUSH provided me with a plethora of knowledge on history, it did not teach me how to write an essay. I sincerely hope that I have fully gotten out of the APUSH mindset and that I am beginning to write better English essays. I wish myself and my fellow classmates the best of luck this Monday and for the rest of this semester.
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